dun knw wat..?

i knw a strange title..huh..'dun knw wat..?"but thts true for some of the most obvious things in the life..one wud knw al d details, al the facts n figures..but stil be clueless about the situation..standin in middle of no where..knwing the way towards the destination(s)..but scratchin his head and wonderin..to go or not to go..jus blindly thinkin bout nothing..ya i knw i'm not makin any sense,,but u c ths is wat i'm talkin bout..a strange paradox..an uncertainity amongst enuf certainity..a wierd dilemma amidst otherwise ample surety..i knw most things..but dun knw clearly..as to what i wanna knw..yup there i go again..too much of absurdness in my thoughts..lemme try n be more clear..like i had planed six postings prior to this..but they were kept in abeyance for one reason or the other..(i guess lathargy is a valid reason)..but dun why i preceeded this posting prior to otherwise planned ones..this ain't helpin u huh..yup me niether..lets figure it outon its way through..
life in the larger sense is so comfortin and peaceful for us..(i'm refferin to the ones with the privilige and the intellect to surf the net or for tht matter read and write)..as compared to the other..u knw less privillaged ones..but still..there's sumthing not complete about it..we'r in constant persuit of some otherwise imaginary,dillusionary thing..with the conception (read misconception) that ones we attain that (the mythical thing) we'l be gay n gaiety..but the fact is u'l never get that..coz once u hv that..u'l realize that..this is'nt exactly what u wanted..whatevr u got for better or for worse..is'nt the most desired object..u knw its that strange kinda bubble with in u..which does'nt settle..!! u always want smthing more out of life..but neither knw wat u want exactly..and u never knw how much of it u want..theres always this uncanny desire for more or for that matter smthng different..!!
this is wat i was sayin..u hv virtually evry thng u need..but u ain't satisfied..u sm thng else..u want smthng more..but u dun god damn knw wat..??
this is the wierd thing with life is'nt it..if it screws u..it screws u tight..and when ur out loose n free..u thnk..wether really i wanted to be free..and thts the catch..the fuckin life is screwin ur mind..if not u physically..!!
tht reminds me of one of my favorite quotes....
"no ones a virgin..life screws all"..
by the way..i turn 21 in months time..and i'm stil a virgin..(in the more practical sense)..
u knw wht..i dun knw wat the fuck is wrong with us..i dun wanna find out it either..u knw smthng are better undiscovered..but there are lotta things i'l like to share with u ppl..(my love for instance)..so i'l see u soon.!! aDiOs..!!